Xx Bye, bye beautiful xX

Whoo

2005-12-08T16:33:01Z

Okay, so I have a new job. Thank the Good Lord Almighty! I am leaving my current job at the end of the month and starting my new job in January. I also am almost done with my app for Downstate Medical, so I can send that in. I really think that I have a good shot of getting accepted. I am also going to Windham for a little snowboarding next weekend. I'm not going to say that things are looking up - I don't want to jinx anything. How about - things are looking level?

: )

Grrh

2005-11-24T18:11:10Z

Here I am at work. And allow me to say...

I hate my job.
I hate my job.
I hate nursing.
I hate my job.
I hate my job.
I hate working in a suffocating, restrictive industry run by low education middle aged white women.

I am excited that I gave my notice yesterday (6 weeks, to be the professional one, and attempt to leave on a good note)but I am worried that my next job will be as bad as this one, which will be as bad as the previous ones. I have to have a more day to day outlook on things, that I will be back in school next Fall, trying to make my life better.

Trying. And hoping to not fail.

Sorry for the poopy thoughts. On a happy note, Happy Thanksgiving to all.

Chris

Uggggh

2005-11-22T06:36:52Z

So, I had a huge episode of reflux while I was sleeping and now I am awake. Ugh. I have been under far too much stress lately. The first being my idiotic job. I am at my wit's end dealing with an office run by and full of middle-aged suburban women. I've never seen a more indecisive bunch of people in my life. No leadership skills, not a brain in their heads. We rolled out a new clinical software system, and the entire thing was done ass-backwards and now the staff is paying for it. We've lost 15 people in the last year, and management thinks that they have no role in this. I am looking for a new job, but frankly, finding another job in nursing is the last thing I want right now. Nurses need to seriously re-invent themselves or our profession is going to slowly die out. The median age of nurses is something like 47 or 48. Hell, that's pretty much the median age of people going into nursing school, too. You basically have a bunch of suburban housewives going into nursing, and they happily carry their PTA thinking into the workplace and are praised for it. God help me, I can't take it.

I am seriously missing having any connection with the queer community as well. Laura is very closeted, and not very social, so these things don't impact her. The only thing that really impacts her is work. She's completely married to her job. I used to have a great circle of queer friends, who knows where these people are now. Everytime I try to get involved with queer groups, Laura gets suspicious that I am looking for someone else. Gah! The woman is prefectly happy having no friends, I'm telling you. I, on the other hand, am going out of my mind. Things need to change. Not that I don't love the friends that I have - I do. But it's always nice to expand your circle.

Have I complained enough for one night? I think so.

Yes, I am a looooser

2005-10-12T22:28:55Z

Yes, I am the biggest LJ loser. I forgot about my LJ!

Transquility - thanks for thinking of me. E-mail me off LJ to chat.

I know that TQ has been seriously dieting for the last 6 months, and you have to give him props for that. I decided to get my own very fat ass into shape recently. I've been working out 4-5 nights a week - doing 30-45 minutes of cardio and lifting weights. I am so fucking impatient. It's been a month, I've lost 6 pounds, and I am noticing some SMALL changes in my musculature. Of course, I want to be a hulking beast now. I'm using HydroxyCut, too. So far, it's pretty good. Not like I see any HUGE, MIND BLOWING fat burning going on, but I definitely have more energy and my appetite is definitely suppressed.

I would love to use DHEA to increase my T levels, but being that I was given the big THUMBS DOWN on using any hormones or prohormones, I'm kind of wary about it. I love lifting weights, but it also just drives home the fact that I will never be able to use T or have the type of body that I see in my mind's eye. I am hoping to lose a considerable amount of weight, get myself into good shape and have top surgery. If nothing else, at least I can have the chest that I want. I've been bench pressing and using the chest machines to bring some strength and shape to my pecs. I'm a surgical risk because of my bleeding disorder, but surgeons are more likely to work with me if I am healthier and in better shape.

I've been at my job for over a year and I am bored skulless. I am stuck between a rock and the proverbial hard place. I am going back to school full time next fall to finish my master's and was planning on staying there as a per diem BUT the pay sucks. I can go back to the hospital, make more money and get benefits working part time (pro-rated but better than nothing). Yeah, the shifts are long and it's a killer on my herniated disks - but in the end, it will be worth it.

It's been raining here for like a week straight. What a drag. I need some sun or I might just shrivel up and die.

Woot

2005-07-25T23:48:37Z

Wow, I took a Flexeril and spent the afternoon on an Alternate Universe. What a great day off! I was even laying outside in the shade with my pillow and Flexeril high. All days off should be spent like this.

On a lighter note, no sign of Mousie. When I came back in, I left the back door open to let the lovely breeze in. Maybe he found his way out?

I ordered pizza from Papa John's for me and Laura. I have to iron my clothes for work tomorrow and bathe. Bah to work.

Uggh

2005-07-25T14:49:16Z

Oh humidity! Why do you plague me so?

Yeah, yeah boo hoo for me.

I really can't decide if my neck is stiff because my head hurts or if my neck is stiff because my shoulder muscles are spasming. It seems like I can't make very many decisions these days, but I am going to have to change that.

All I know right know is that there is a tiny field mouse under the loveseat and if he has chewed a hole in it, Laura will have an out of body experience. God help you, Mousie. Run for your life!!